Today

Today is a day full of sadness. Prickling regret at one fly away, ill-thought unplanned lie that has torched the security of all the solid aspects of my life. How is it possible that with one sentence the notion of 'home' has turned to rubble, small pebbles, small enough to patter roughly through my open fingers...

I am aghast at myself, at things in general, at how fast it can all change.

How the one thing i want the most - to belong, to have a home - continues to elude me.